I'm obviously unhappy with myself. I've tried to lose weight and I have and kept it off. I am making a big change in my life so I can finally lose this weight, be happy with me, and have a better way of handling my relationships with those around me.
This is more than just a weight loss blog. This is about me changing my life. I have weight loss goals, I also have life goals. I need to be comfortable with standing on my own two feet, doing what I think is best for me reguardless of the judgement others serve me, and just setting myself free.
Can you understand?
I feel trapped, and suffocated by all these things I hate so much. My weight, my family ties, being bound by my rape, my reliance on others, and my need to be some sort of people pleaser. It's sickening!